To everyone that's posted, THANK YOU. I've read every single post, although I haven't replied to them all.
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pinky in a way I'm glad they have secret clubs like that, I honestly wish my school did that. I went through years of bullying. I lost all my hair in 6th grade from an autoimmune disorder and almost commit suicide at 11 years old because I had zero friends. Recess was torture, to say the least. I used to play with little kids. I was 11/12, and I was playing with 7 year olds just because I didn't want to be alone. I used to beg and cry and beg my mom to take me home at lunch and eventually she did. Those few years were sheer torture and I peg all the bullying, harassment and lonlyness as a major trigger for my mental disorders. I refuse to tell my therapist because I simply can't bear to think about it. I try to be positive now. In 8th grade I started fresh at a new school, after declaring I would sooner kill myself then step foot in that school for another year of hell. Going to that new school seriously SAVED my life.
Of course, the summer before grade 7 my mind went down the toilet, but at least I have friends now. Who needs sanity or health anyways