My guinea pigs are dead. My heart is broken. Once again. The first two guinea pigs I ever brought home were Winnie and Ezra. And Ezra died a month after I brought him home. I thought it may had been my fault. I built their cage and it didn't have enough ventilation. The Ammonia from their pee killed him. And that was so hard for me. I felt so so guilty. After that I adopted a new baby. Named Oreo. I took the lid of the cage so it would have more ventilation. I knew I had to take precautions Cuz I had a husky at home as well. But the lid had to go. And slowly my heart mended and I fell in love with Oreo. I had winnie and Oreo. And I became happy again. Except one day I came home from school and Oreo had really bad diarrhea. And I knew that meant trouble. So I skipped all my classes for the day and rushed him to the doctor. I waited. And they told me he would spend the night. So I went home and I got a call from my mom telling me that they could try to save Oreo but it would cost me. So I said whatever it takes. And I payed 300 dollars for my little Oreo. And I prayed for his recovery. But he died . The doctor said he had a parasite and the diarrhea caused him severe dehydration. I happened to leave it to my sister that day refill their water bottle and when I found Oreo sick, the bottle was empty. Once again I blamed myself. And I cried. What if the bottle had been full? Would that had made a difference? And my heart was broken again. But. I still had Winnie . And I told myself no more. I would just have one guinea pig. But then I fell in love with Milo the moment I saw him. And I brought him home. What a beautiful baby he was. I rocked him in my arms and sang to him when he was small enough to fit into the palm of my hand. But three days after bringing him home,he had crusty eyes and I once again knew that meant trouble. So I brought him to the doctor and they cared for him. Three weeks later he was home again. And I was happy. There was something about Milo that was different from any guinea pig I had ever gotten. I fell head over heals for that little baby. I loved the way he would fall asleep on my chest. I loved the way he would popcorn everywhere. And everything seemed okay again. And I moved into my house closer to school. And they went into my walk in closet since my room was the tiniest thing ever. And I eventually noticed they weren't happy in there. So I bought a different cage and set it directly in the middle of my room. I had no room to do anything else. But if it meant they were happy. Then I was happy. And the months passed. And towards the end of the semester this year, I decided to leave them at my parent house in their old cage in my old room. And one night I was at my boyfriends house and I needed to stop by my parents house but he begged me not to. And I thought that was weird ... And then I kept asking my sister to send me a picture of my babies because I missed them so much and she just kept making up excuses not to. And that was also weird... And then I came home to my parents one day and the house was locked. And it's never locked. So I went to my moms office
and we were driving home and when we pulled up into the driveway she stopped, put the car in park. And said " Rachel there is no easy way to tell you this" and i Burst out into tears right then and there. I screamed at her. And she told me, that my Husky killed my guinea pigs. I flung myself out of the car and started running . I didn't know where I was going. But I sobbed , screamed. I was hysterical. And then I called my bf sobbing and he rushed over. Ditched his final exam to be with me. So me my mom and my bf all sat in my living room while I cried. So this is what happened:
My grandmother left the house for thirty min. And didn't lock up the dogs. My husky jumped over the barrier on the stairs that he has never ever done before. He has never shown interest in going up stairs. Even with the pigs up stairs. But that day something interested him. And someone happened to leave my door open. And you can let your imagination take it from there. My family decided to not tell me until after my finals. That's why my bf didn't want me going home and that why my sister wouldn't send me a picture of them. They knew I wouldn't be able to get my finals done if I had known.
How could this have happened? We babysit a two year old who loved my piggies. Did she go up to see them and not shut the door? Why did my grandma not lock the dogs up that day? Why out of all the other days did my dog decide to go upstairs the one time my door wasn't closed. It all seemed to perfectly executed.
So as I said.. My bf and my mom sat there as I sobbed. And my mother sobbed with me. And then my mother told me this:
The day after I left my guinea pigs at their house the incident happened. My little brother came home to find one of the pigs downstairs. He called my mom hysterical. And he cried to her and told her what happened. And then my mom drove home from work that day crying. And when my baby sister found out she cried. And when my aunt found out she cried. And when my bf found out he cried. When my grand father found out he called my mom everyday to ask if I knew yet and if I was okay. The moment my mom told me this i stopped crying. I know for a fact my family did not love those pigs more than me. My siblings didn't care for them. And yet everyone cried. They all cried for my pain. They knew I would be absolutely devastated and they cried . And then it clicked. Maybe this happened for a reason. I have horrible depression and self esteem issues. And to hear that my whole family cried for me. For my loss. That meant the world to me. I never knew they cared that much. And that makes me so grateful to have them in my life.
Thanks to everyone who is still reading this right now. My heart hurts. I'm so traumatized. Were Milo and Winnie scared? I hope to god they went quickly. My mother said there was no blood. And mom thinks one them might have had a heart attack. Because he was still in the cage. I just keep imagining what it was like for them. I was supposed to protect them. I failed them.
I also keep thinking about all my mistakes. I wasn't a perfect guinea pig owner. I didn't always feed them veggies. Sometimes their cage would get to dirty, sometime my sister didn't feed them for one day. But I really tried my best. And I loved them so so much. And I keep beating myself up. They deserved someone perfect. And I failed them.
I wrote this long story because all my guinea pigs were amazing. And I want everyone to know my story.
So rip Ezra, Oreo, Milo, and Winnie.
- I will bury you all next to one another. I am so so so sorry babes. Plz don't comment on this forum and criticize me. I am beating myself up enough as it is.
and we were driving home and when we pulled up into the driveway she stopped, put the car in park. And said " Rachel there is no easy way to tell you this" and i Burst out into tears right then and there. I screamed at her. And she told me, that my Husky killed my guinea pigs. I flung myself out of the car and started running . I didn't know where I was going. But I sobbed , screamed. I was hysterical. And then I called my bf sobbing and he rushed over. Ditched his final exam to be with me. So me my mom and my bf all sat in my living room while I cried. So this is what happened:
My grandmother left the house for thirty min. And didn't lock up the dogs. My husky jumped over the barrier on the stairs that he has never ever done before. He has never shown interest in going up stairs. Even with the pigs up stairs. But that day something interested him. And someone happened to leave my door open. And you can let your imagination take it from there. My family decided to not tell me until after my finals. That's why my bf didn't want me going home and that why my sister wouldn't send me a picture of them. They knew I wouldn't be able to get my finals done if I had known.
How could this have happened? We babysit a two year old who loved my piggies. Did she go up to see them and not shut the door? Why did my grandma not lock the dogs up that day? Why out of all the other days did my dog decide to go upstairs the one time my door wasn't closed. It all seemed to perfectly executed.
So as I said.. My bf and my mom sat there as I sobbed. And my mother sobbed with me. And then my mother told me this:
The day after I left my guinea pigs at their house the incident happened. My little brother came home to find one of the pigs downstairs. He called my mom hysterical. And he cried to her and told her what happened. And then my mom drove home from work that day crying. And when my baby sister found out she cried. And when my aunt found out she cried. And when my bf found out he cried. When my grand father found out he called my mom everyday to ask if I knew yet and if I was okay. The moment my mom told me this i stopped crying. I know for a fact my family did not love those pigs more than me. My siblings didn't care for them. And yet everyone cried. They all cried for my pain. They knew I would be absolutely devastated and they cried . And then it clicked. Maybe this happened for a reason. I have horrible depression and self esteem issues. And to hear that my whole family cried for me. For my loss. That meant the world to me. I never knew they cared that much. And that makes me so grateful to have them in my life.
Thanks to everyone who is still reading this right now. My heart hurts. I'm so traumatized. Were Milo and Winnie scared? I hope to god they went quickly. My mother said there was no blood. And mom thinks one them might have had a heart attack. Because he was still in the cage. I just keep imagining what it was like for them. I was supposed to protect them. I failed them.
I also keep thinking about all my mistakes. I wasn't a perfect guinea pig owner. I didn't always feed them veggies. Sometimes their cage would get to dirty, sometime my sister didn't feed them for one day. But I really tried my best. And I loved them so so much. And I keep beating myself up. They deserved someone perfect. And I failed them.
I wrote this long story because all my guinea pigs were amazing. And I want everyone to know my story.
So rip Ezra, Oreo, Milo, and Winnie.
- I will bury you all next to one another. I am so so so sorry babes. Plz don't comment on this forum and criticize me. I am beating myself up enough as it is.