I feel like I did it, poor lilly and Natalya!

[ittybitty98577]

My piggies are gone. I found my dog I lost four years ago and yesterday was the first day I left her alone. She broke down the baby gate went up stairs and opened my door found my piggies. I ran up staired because I had a really bad feeling about them when I was out of the house, and I saw lilly.
Then I saw Natalya.

I didnt have a dog proof cage I mean they had half my room with an open cage. But I feel like its my fault. I have never cried that hard in a long time. Its even really hard to come here and tell you guys but I have no friends and need to get it off my chest. But the thing is if I was 15 mins early they would still be here. If I had a dog proof cage they would be ok. If I would have put the stupid dog in a room they would be here.

Poor Natalya wasnt even a year yet and lilly evans was going to have babies any day now. I loved them so much! And I wanted to give them a good life but I failed. I wish I would have been a good piggy mamma.

It will be a long time before I get another pair. And I will have a whole room for them and NO DOGS and ill have a freakin lock down prision like azkaban or alkatraz so nothing can get in or even break it down to get in.

It will be a while till I can look at the pics of all the happy piggies but I will still come in and say hi to you all...

[katiecavyNC]

I'm so sorry to hear about your piggies. Try not to beat yourself up too much - you did have the dog contained away from your room and I know you never dreamed he/she would have broken through the gate you had.

Hugs...
Susan

[ittybitty98577]

Thanks, I just wish I could have done more. And I cant find any of their old pics

[HowietheGreat]

I hope you are not angry with the dog. Animals act on instinct, it isn't as though he knew better.

[ittybitty98577]

Oh no Im not agry at her I know she was only trying to play with the pigs. If she was doing it out of anger or "food agression" it would have been worse. I blame myself and im mad at myself for not being able to protect the pigs more then just having a baby gate at the bottom of the stairs and then the door to my bedroom.

Like I said I just got the dog back after four years I dont really know my dog or how she would have acted but she was fine when I was in the room with them or when it was time to go to bed she just watched them. Only once did she try and go into the cage and I yelled at her and that was it she didnt want anything to do with them after that. Ive just been crying all day and I have a huge headache all I want is to hear their weeks and feed them nummies but I cant! I feel so rotten. I really thought they would be safe.

[Fluffy_Guinea]

Oh my gosh I'm so sorry and don't neat yourself up over this it wasn't your fault and you were a great piggie mamma it was an accident. Please don't beat yourself up for this again it's not your fault. If you need to talk I'm here for you I know how hard it is to lose a pig .

[ittybitty98577]

Thanks Fluffy I had to clean out the hay boxes today I havent even been able to go near their cage. I just want to leave it as it is but its just so hard. Every time I come back to this site I cry. Ive just been listening to nick cave cds hes a real help. I hevent really done anything all day. The only thing thats gives me some peace is that they are in heaven but then I think did the babies get to go to. And I never even got to say Hello to them. I just feel like half my family is gone. I didnt know I would be this emotional! Man I wish I had a time turner...

[ittybitty98577]

Here are some pics I found, I lost all the ones of both I could only find ones of lilly evans the mommy.

[ortal]

First off lily evans is one of the best piggy names I have heard in a long time.

Second, I am really sorry. I know it is hard not to feel guilty. I hope they didn't feel much pain. Maybe you should talk to someone. A parent? a school counselor? I know for myself it would be very traumatic to walk in and see not only a dead pet but in such a horrid way.

[babybunny]

*hugs and comfort* I'm so sorry you have had to go through this. It is a very horrible and traumatic way to lose your babies. Music is a good form of therapy for sure. Try and take a nice hot bath as well. Deep breaths associated with happy thoughts of them may help too. If you have anyone you can talk to in person, please seek them out. Sometimes you just need a warm body to be near you in a time of distress. I hope you find some peace soon.

[Fluffy_Guinea]

Your welcome but you don't have to thank me I'm just here to help and comfort just like I said I know how hard this is, oh and Lily Evans is a beatiful name and so is Natalya. Lily was a beatiful piggy and I know they both popcorned over the rainbow bridge and are missing you too but you will see them again one day. I'm a firm beliver that are passed loved ones are watching over us everyday I'm not sure about you though but thats a pretty comforting thought to me.

[ittybitty98577]

Thank you all, Just knowing that there are people out here that care... I didnt really even get a full year with them it was just all so soon. When im ready I will adopt as many piggies as I can and I will keep them safe in a lock down castle prison with as many toys and tunnels as possible. I did have a 33 foot Alternative cage for lilly and Natalya and was going to go up four stories in one part. But At least now they are in feilds of grass and flowers.
I remember the first time Lilly met Natalya lilly was in a petstore litter box then she moved in and I had never seen a pig popcorn like that it was so funny it was like a run/thump/jump/popcorn/wiggle all around and do it all over again. She was the loudest to a big fat pig she loved her veggies.
Natalya was my first pig. A peruvian Satin shes was so pritty but so shy I didnt really get a chance to form that great of a bond with her because she was taking a long time to warm up to me. But I was willing to take forever to get her loves.

I really miss it at night right when I turn out the lights they started to get all happy and play now its quite....

Im really trying hard to find all the pics I uploaded on my pc but I deleted them but I know they are still in the pc does anyone know how to get them?

[Maisiepaisie]

I'm so sorry you're going through this I felt exactly the same when my hamster Sparkle died. She escaped and I tore the house apart looking for her. I found her months later trapped in a vase in a seemingly inaccessible corner of the kitchen cupboard. The guilt is awful and it spoils the happy memories, but try not to let it. Your pigs are safe now and will be playing and eating grass at the rainbow bridge

(Any pics you've deleted will be in your recycle bin as long as you haven't emptied it. Go into recycle bin and click 'restore')

[ittybitty98577]

Im Sorry that happned to Sparkle thats would have been a very sad find. I use to have hamsters and they always got out of the store bought cages.

I deleted my recycle bin a while back I was trying to empty it but hit the delete button.

Last night I had a dream that well I was being attacked by a bear. I was trapped in like a cage type thing on the back of a truck. I could only do little damage like scrach the bears nose and smack it even though I was human size. But once the bear left I saw the shoe boxes that my guinea pigs were in and their was another one with a little baby in it. And I heard Lilly week and I was looking at them and I saw that they were still halfway alive so I started yelling to get help and I was trying to help them but then I woke up.

Last night was when we took the bodies....

[Tulia&Susie]

I'm so sorry to hear for your losses. Like everyone has said don't blame yourself. You weren't able to tell if your dog would of broken down the gate and gotton to the piggies. I can't imagine the pain and horror and I'm again sorry for your loss.

[ittybitty98577]

Thanks, Im not use to losing pets. Ive only lost one to death. My first dog got stolen and I lost my other one and now I have her back.

Im in the middle of taking down their cage right now, its really sad I just dont know what to do with all their stuff in a way I want to keep it out but then I want to store it in a box to keep it safe. I think ill just keep it safe for now.